The Problem With "Clean Eating" in ED Recovery
She is in recovery from an eating disorder. She’s no longer restricting, bingeing, or purging, and she is finally starting to feel free from this illness. She enjoys laughing with her friends over scones and coffee at Starbucks, and is no longer spending so much time fixated on food or her body.
It begins subtly.
She reads an article online about the benefits of ‘clean eating’ and ‘whole foods.’ She starts following ‘clean eating’ enthusiasts on Instagram, and spends time pouring over their pictures of perfectly styled acai bowls and dinners of chicken breast, green beans, and sweet potatoes.
She can’t believe how ‘unhealthy’ she was eating before and feels a sense of pride when checking out at the grocery store, with a cart filled to the brim full of ‘clean,’ organic, and ‘whole foods.’
The Problem With ‘Clean Eating’ In Recovery
There’s a problem within the eating disorder recovery community, and I’m about to share a somewhat controversial opinion.
I posted a status on Facebook that was highly shared and commented on.
“Saying that you’ve recovered from an eating disorder and now you eat “clean” and stay away from processed foods-is like saying you are sober from alcoholism-yet maintain a “healthy” relationship to alcohol by sticking to wine and beer. While “clean eating” may be socially sanctioned-it’s incredibly dangerous for those in eating disorder recovery (and largely unhelpful to the population in general.”
This status was prompted by yet another interview featuring a celebrity who claims to be in strong recovery from an eating disorder, who describes how she ‘eats clean’ and avoids all processed foods.
Clean eating’ is largely unhelpful for the general population and can create a disordered or unhealthy relationship to food. However, it’s downright dangerous for those in eating disorder recovery.
Here’s the thing: eating disorders are often sneaky illnesses.
In recovery, they can try to subtly claw their way back into someone’s life. Think of an eating disorder as an abusive partner, who will say anything to try to get you back into their grasp.
Research suggests that the best sustained recovery outcomes, occur when individuals are able to incorporate variety and flexibility into their eating patterns. Additionally, eating disorders thrive on rules, rigidity, and a sense of “good” vs. “bad” foods.
Therefore, trying to ‘eat clean,’ and the idea that there are ‘unclean foods,’ which should be avoided-is incredibly triggering for those with the underlying genetics for an eating disorder.
Anytime you apply rules or restriction to your eating patterns in recovery, there is a greater chance for the eating disorder to sneak back in.
Of course, there are genuine exceptions, if you have been diagnosed by a doctor with celiac-for instance.
However, largely the aim is to have flexibility, variety, and pleasure in your eating patterns.
Further, there’s an emerging eating disorder called “orthorexia,” which is essentially an unhealthy fixation with ‘healthy eating.’ It’s easy to see how someone might transition from one eating disorder to another (more socially acceptable) presentation of an eating disorder.
This can be even more difficult to recover from, as many may not even recognize that it is a problem.
The Bottom Line
I have so much empathy and compassion for how easy it is to fall into the ‘clean eating’ or ‘fitness’ trap while in recovery from anorexia, bulimia, OSFED, or binge eating disorder. In a culture where everyone is running around promoting the whole 30, ‘the keto diet,’and ‘clean eating,’ it makes sense that this can happen.
However, what’s important is that you recognize that this is typically another presentation of your eating disorder and it’s crucial that you reach out for treatment and support if you are struggling.
Additionally, it’s important to note that food and morality have nothing to do with each other.
Carrots aren’t wearing angel halos and cake isn’t diabolically plotting to harm you. All foods can fit into a healthy diet, and can be enjoyed guilt-free. Because you never need to feel guilty for eating, unless you stole that brownie from the store.
Guilt free foods=all foods.
Further, if the goal of ‘clean eating’ is purported to be health, it is important that we recognize that good mental health is a crucial part of a healthy lifestyle.
I think we can all agree that obsessively following food rules, being unable to eat a meal out with friends, and feeling ashamed after eating a brownie is not mentally healthy.
Especially if you are in recovery from or have a history of an eating disorder, there is simply no way to ‘eat clean,’ quit sugar, avoid processed foods, go on a diet (even if you call it a lifestyle change!), etc, and to strongly maintain your recovery.
It’s like, saying “let me heal from my mental illness that causes me to obsess and focus about food and my body-by finding a new way to obsess and focus on food and my body.”
Ultimately, you deserve to be truly free from food rules, obsession, and body-hate.
Jennifer Rollin, MSW, LCSW-C is a therapist and founder of The Eating Disorder Center in Rockville, Maryland, a therapy and coaching practice that serves clients in Rockville, MD and virtually worldwide (via video). She serves as the chairwoman of Project Heal's national network of eating disorder treatment providers. She has spoken about eating disorders on Fox 5, ABC 7, NBC 4, PBS, and national eating disorder conferences. Jennifer has been named as one of the top eating disorder experts in the world by Balance Eating Disorder Treatment Center.