Be a Snowflake
They say that every snowflake is one of a kind. There are no two snowflakes exactly the same, and they are each individually incredibly beautiful. YOU are a snowflake! Yes, you don’t fall from the sky when it’s cold but you get my point! You are one of a kind, beautiful, and special. Why is it then that we feel like we need to fit into some sort of mold and are constantly comparing ourselves to others?
I know that for me personally at the age of 35 as far as societal norms go, I was a failure. Or at least that’s how I felt about myself. I was single, did not have children, did not own my own place, and was in active addiction. I could not see any way out and often felt like because I did not have these things, what was the point of even trying to change my life? I had come to the conclusion that I would be alone forever, was not worthy of love, and would never have the life I so desperately wanted.
Despite wanting all of these “things,” all I truly wanted was to be happy, healthy, and sober. I knew I would never have any of these things if I did not get help.
The day my life changed forever was the day I overdosed, and woke up in the hospital. I just could not keep living the life I was living anymore. Addiction had brought me to my knees. For the first time in my life, I let go of my ego and asked for help. The medical staff helped get me into a facility to properly detox and receive the help I so desperately needed. After that it was up to me though to do the work. I wish I could tell you that I did everything I was told, but that would be a lie. The last thing we want to do as addicts is to have to look at ourselves and what we have done wrong, and work to fix it. I held onto my old behaviors and old identity so tightly because I had no idea who I was. Slowly through intensive individual, group, and experiential therapy, layer-by-layer these things began to strip away. My true self and personality began to shine through. The next step in my recovery was to heal past trauma, my resentments, and my harms done in active addiction.
When I was discharged from treatment I dove into a recovery program headfirst! I knew that my way of doing things clearly was not working for me. I was finally open and willing enough to do what I needed to do to save my life. The gifts that sobriety has given me are more than I could have dreamed they would ever be! I have a job that I am passionate about where I get to share my experience and help others who are struggling with substance abuse. I could tell you all of the “things” that I now have in my life, but that is not what makes me happy today.
“Today, I know exactly who I am and love myself-that is the greatest gift of all!”
I do not compare myself to others or their lives anymore. Now the only person I strive to be better than is the person I was yesterday. We all fall short some days, no one is perfect. I am definitely not! But today I love myself enough not to beat myself up over these things but to learn, grow, and change from them. Be a snowflake! Be beautiful! Be you!
ABOUT THE AUTHOR: CRYSTAl HAMPTON
Crystal Hampton is a 37-year-old avid writer from South Florida. She loves snuggling with her teacup Yorkie Gator and boyfriend Adam. She works for a digital marketing company that advocates spreading awareness on the disease of addiction. Her passion in life is to help others by sharing her experience, strength, and hope.